Growing up in rural areas I was never exposed to the vast number of people who pray that there will be a shelter with space for them so that they don’t have to spend a cold winters night outside or who spend their days staring at the ground because they don’t want to see the expression of disgust on the faces of the people who glance awkwardly at them on the street. I never understood the vast and complex ways in which people could lose all that they held dear to them.
How engaging in conversation made me more socially conscious
*note: names have been changed for confidentiality.
It all began six years ago when I moved to London; I was fairly well travelled as a child and so it’s not as if I hadn’t seen the people who sit on pavements but the emotional response was never as profound as when I was forced to encounter several people every day as I commuted, shopped, or skipped (†) merrily with my friends to museums and bars. On these daily journeys I began to notice that I was encountering the same people each day and I started to make an effort to stop, say hello and, since I rarely carried money in London, buying hot drinks and food for them.
The following year I started working in Brighton a few days a week and it was here that I met Sam. Embarrassingly, we met after I tripped over his dog but I quickly grew accepting of that embarrassing event as I talked to Sam; I had the shattering revelation that my preconceptions were all wrong. He told me his story – one of fear and bereavement – and as he spoke I could feel the compassion welling up in me, it felt like a psychical force pushing up from the depths of my emotional well and smacked me powerfully in the heart on its way.
Sam introduced me to his friends – who gave themselves the affectionate name of Homies without a home – and I made a conscious effort in London to not just say hello but to ask questions, to sit and have conversations. I got in the habit of writing down the names of people I met, a little of the story they shared and ways in which I could pray with them. I now have notebooks crammed with names and tales of woe and hardship, but despite all this these people were some of the most positive and endearing I have ever met.
For the past couple of months I have been spending time with Lewis – an ex-serviceman – who I first met him outside Waverley on my way to lecture just before Christmas. The first time introduced myself he met me with a smile and proudly presented a letter that told him he would be given a flat in the next week. Since coming out of the army he has been homeless, naturally he has been feeling somewhat dejected that the government had rejected him after a lifetime of service, and seeing atrocious acts committed by other people across the world. My heart went out to him; we chatted for a while and I wished him luck with his new flat, offered my prayers and left for my lecture. Over the next few weeks I kept him in my prayers and felt comforted that he was safe and warm in his flat. However, after the New Year I arrived at the top of the stairs outside of Waverley and saw Lewis sitting cold on the ground once again. I was gutted. It transpired that the council changed their mind about the flat and Lewis had spent Christmas and New Year alone and cold on the streets, since there had been no time to book into a shelter. By this time he was feeling ill but still, he met me with a smile.
Last week I met him again, we talked over coffee and hot chocolate until I had to leave for my lecture. I have to admit, I love talking with him; his humility is a continuous lesson to me and our conversations always challenge my social conscience. It was the day of the woman’s marches across the world and the sad state of our world was at the forefront of our minds and, while I can think of few others that have the right to be angry at the world more than Lewis, he said something that shook me, “being on the streets has restored my faith in humanity.” I could feel my brain doubling back on its train of thought to process this unlikely statement. He told me that while he may despair in the businessmen with Rolexes who share only an averted gaze with him, he also met the people who cared to stop, the students who shared their bus fairs; the people who offer active compassion.
Community is essential to living consciously; knowing your neighbours, the concerns of others in your area and the issues that have detrimental effects on people are all motivations for living in a way that sustains and encourages community. My challenge to you is this: meet the people who you wouldn’t normally engage with, learn their names, share a coffee and hear their concerns, know the story of someone who has lost everything.
(†) We rarely skipped in fact; though walking seems rather dull, doesn’t it?